Joycette

Happy Birthday Alicia

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 08:09:00 +0000

All my friends are envious of me having elder sister, and i somemore have two! and i somehow am quite proud to have them, really!

Time flies, my sister is turning 23 , on 26th Sept.

There's always a strong bond among us sisters, whenever anything happens, we stand out for each other, we feel for each other!

I remember once, i was merajuk because i didnt wanna practice my speech and my mom was about to scold me... ali kept persuading me to practice my speech and kept telling my mom that i did i did...

Back in primary school, when we were still in our old house, we used to have a double decker bed. and i remember got once, i was on the stairs climbing to the upper decker, ali played with me and she was on the lower decker kicking me.. i almost fell and i got so mad, i took a stainless steeled tabung and threw on her. Her lips were swolen so badly, and she had a singing competition the next day!

omg, i felt sooooo bad... and still feeling bad now u know :( lastly, she brought her swolen lips to the stage and finished her song. i love u ali.

My mom my dad my sis my bro love her because she is so smart and understanding. she's like a wise intellectual woman to me.

I can't deny i hate her hot temper sometimes, but i love her everything else :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALI !

May all the best of luck for you and may happiness be with you.

We love you prettie.

TITANIC - MOVIE OF MY LIFE

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 18:00:00 +0000

out of boredom i surfed thunder for some good movie to watch, and came to browse through titanic, no second thought, i clicked it.

gosh, it tears me even for my dunno how many times watching it.

and one thing i cant deny, Titanic is the most amazing movie ever, and not even any movie can replace it, until now... Titanic was so long ago... ever since it was out, until now, a decade almost... not even one movie can replace how good it is in my heart. gosh, it just worths my tears and time watching it over and over again. kate winslet is so uniquely beautiful and leonardo dicarpio... i know all u must be thinking he's damn old and short but pls! he's my super idol ! and i still adore him until now :D

madness for heels

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 15:35:00 +0000

i want an online boutique which has nice ready stock heels, oh please? CANT I JUST HAVE ONE !

i ve paid my pre order heels for few days ago but i have to wait for two weeks. i dont know why am i on this madness for heels now ! ohh please please... let me have one for now !

i've been browsing thru pages and pages... well, good try u sellers but all either too expensive or pre-order.

all i ever wanted - REASONABLEPRICE, READY STOCK, NICE.

three simple things.

COME ON !

What family stands for?

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 06:53:00 +0000

Seriously i love my family.

and just if you still dont know, what family stands for?
Father And Mother I Love You

and here are my pictures with my family :)

=))

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 11:52:00 +0000

Selamat Hari Raya =))

It's malay new year again, it's so fast ! i love that the whole selangor is not as packed, all the main highways are so free of jam and what can i say, I LOVE TRAVELLING AROUND =))

hmm, this period of time is also the period where people leave Msia to further studies in UK, after the summer break. I ll miss you all my friends out there!

As for me, that's gona happen next year. a big NAYYYYY ! arh.

So what i did during this holidays? *click on my pic for more pics*

I had alot of fun with my family at our Genting trip ! hmm, cant wait for the next trip this end of year.

as a lazy blogger, allow me to stop here! and more updates soon k =))

I MISS YOU !!!

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 09:58:00 +0000

i miss you i really do :(

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 21:32:00 +0000

Bumpy bumpy this love road
falling down
again
thought it would be good
but turn out in pain
what i should
and what i could
to join in this love game
shut me up and take a look
this game is for saints
switch me to single mode
and i'll not be
tame

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 16:46:00 +0000
FUCK YOU BREAK UP !

Fridays are <3

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 08:24:00 +0000

How is everyone doing ?

This is a post, specially to congratulate all my babes and dudes in passing their UOL EXAMS ! I'm so happy for them !

Especially Kenn. His birthday is 20days before the result comes out ! and i said i'll grant him his birthday wish, and last night, by checking his result with my handphone, happily, KENN ! YOU PASSED !

DAMN. that's the best news i've ever told him i guess.
This year is probably a good year for them, as most of them passed ! some even with flying colours. hmm, i almost forgot what's the feeling of victory...

ANYWAY.

I accompanied my dear Halle to 1u yesterday ! and due to the very attractive promotion, i bought this ! (im lazy to take a pic so i google it instead! HEhe)

BEAUTEEN/HOYU JAPAN No. 1 HAIR DYE

WHY DID I BUY IT ? I buy every single thing for a reason. and this hair dye, i buy it with a SUPER GOOD REASON.

Here's the deal. buy one hair dye and u r entitled to one small japanese bag (tiny bag where u can stuff ur money and hp inside, but the promoter claimed it to be a HOT item in Japan where every girl is using.) and also u are entitled to one lucky draw.

So, the attractive part is IF YOU BUY TWO, u get two tiny japanese bags, two lucky draws, and BONUS IS : u get a travelling bag (stripes, quite cute la) which costs rm69.9 and one hair conditioner which is worth rm19.9.

For Lucky Draw, the best thing u can get is either shampoo or conditioner, or else, japanese fan, pens, cape... tiny stuff like that.

So, since hal wanna buy too, we bought two ! and i took the conditioner cause firstly i dun use travelling bag and i have hell alot at home. So i gave her instead. and the kind promoter actuallly let me peep into the lucky draw box and i got conditioner, as wanted. So i'll have two bottles! hmmm? ok, so the kind lady asked if i wanna change to shampoo. why not?

HEHE. so i actually spent rm22.9 on

one hair dye
one japanese tiny bag
one shampoo
one conditioner

What's so good bout the hair dye? well, i am actually used to DIY dye my hair, cause i have many bad experiences with hair stylists, who can never give me the hair color i want. So, i usually buy hair dye in a wholesale shop (available in sg wang, puchong and many places)... So usually i have to buy my own gloves and capes and comb...

The thing with this hair dye is... GLOVES - provided. Capes - use unwanted towel la.... COMB - not necessary because the bottle comes with the comb-like cover. so u basically press and comb your hair and the hair dye is applied evenly. HOW GOOD THIS IS?

WHERE TO GET IT ?

I bought it during watsons promotion and i think it's still going on... in 1u, old wing concourse, right beside padini authentics (i think...)

OKAY! time to wash my hair now.

This year i gain alot of pain

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 16:11:00 +0000

i am in a deep pain. i swear this is my last time going through this pain. it has been umpteen times in a year. and now, i will clearly, make this a must. i must go this time. i M U S T let go this time. i M U S T leave this time, and never give myself a chance or a damned excuse to come back again.

Because nothing will be as pain.

It's like a sickness, haunt me for a year, sometimes feels good but when virus attacks, hurt like no way !

this year, is perhaps the year i lost most tears. the year i will bear in mind, and let myself know, never commit same mistake again. a reminder year. this is the most painful year, too. Growing up is a long way and a painful way to go.

no matter how cute his sleeping pose is, no matter how adorable he is to me, i must make my heart firm and strong as stone this time, i am going to leave.

i am sick of myself, lingering around someone who i dont seem to understand after a year. i am sick of myself, crying alone in the night while he sleeps tight. i am sick of myself giving out hell lots but still being said i am selfish and greedy. i am sick of being in a relationship alone.

why does it cause so much pain ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

when is this gonna end ? now. yes, i tell myself, i order my mind, my emotion, my heart to stop my love, towards this saint. He deserves better.

Boring Girl At Home

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 06:32:00 +0000

Howdy?

I've been bored at home! as i hate being a cheap labour working 10 hours for rm100 so i am jobless now ! add on : i cant deny that i am pretty lazy nowadays. i wake up at 12pm ! or later. jetlag wat to do. nonsense! timelag it should be. lol.

Suddenly i realise i've abandoned my bloggggg and most of the time i dont have a proper entry, really. and i am kinda sure i have no readers now. Just like myself, i would stop visitting that blog if the blogger is lazy as me. whatever.

I am at home all the time and i dont know what to blog about already, really. oh, come, someone come piss me off or make me extremely happy.

Oh ya, national day is coming ! where to ? I WILL BE BACK TO MY HOMETOWN ! and it's pretty cool to stay at a peaceful town on this peaceful day. but im actually pretty worried about the traffic. im sure we'll get stuck BADLY in a jam at the east coast highway as everyone is heading back ! awww. nooo!

Arh, since im bored, i played with my webbie. and some features it has.

I love Flowers! someone comes gimme a big bouquet ! lol. i dunno what im talking about, im just really malfunctioning already !!! some says, when u r lazy, ur brain and all organs wil work slower, so your whole body and reflection and respond are like, slow by half a bit. im no longer a science student, so i dun care if this is proven scientifically. but currently, i feel like it ! dang. pretty slowed.

Anyway, i've been helping my sis with her online boutique, take down order, reply to inquiries etc. and i told my sis i want a dress in repay.

im pretty in love with that *point at the dress*, do u think u wanna give it to me?

nop!

*SOBS* WHY la WHY. i helped u this and this and that and ... *drama going on*

Argh. i'll buy u more next month. (as she's going oversea to choose stocks)

Well, im really in love with those dresses but im not allowed to buy.

next topic,

Sometimes i dont feel like a girl ! i havent been decorating my nails and toes for like ... a month. why are toes and nails important to a girl ? i dunno, it just makes a girl look 20% cleaner, 20% prettier, 20% sexier, 20% cuter and last 20% more attractive. so now i need to catch those percentages back.

Catcha in a bitt !

chill the fuck out

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 10:42:00 +0000

when will u start to listen to me...

sigh. this is my first time, very first time feeling fed up. i am tired after consecutive fights. i am sick of stuffing my feelings in my fragile lil damn heart and talk to no one. fuck this shit.

the prob is afterall, i dunno what r we fighting for. his dignity? or my dignity?

just, none of us can let go of those stupid meaningless fight and hold each other again.

calm the fuck down.

i cant. the besst i can do is hide my hp in the blanket, silent mode, open my laptop and crap it here !

this is my best. what a fucking failure.

*SCREAM* i suck doing my best i suck being ur best so what shits i am? argh. SICK.

S IIIII G HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!

u guys know just, what is sigh ?

WHY DO I DESERVE SHIT !

Family Dinner <3

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 12:44:00 +0000

It has been ages since i have pictures ! i have no idea why, really. i am just being really low profile lately. lol.

Actually, not much outings lately, i've been working on a website for days so i became a computer geek for few days... but now during my family days!

My parents have been here for 3 days <3<3 and as usual, we hang out and had alot good times ! and finally i get to see myself in pictures, lol.

We actually attended a dinner with my dad's friend, whose son works in this restaurant so we get to dine in without advance booking :)

Dinner at YANG CHENG RESTAURANT, JLN. IMBI, KL.

the usually charming and always my pride, sisters

Me and my fatt tiu cheong soup. Lovin' it !

my mom busy talking, i busy enjoying my wine and thats my sis, posing

My dad and Uncle Choy

My mom and Uncle Choy's wife

I had a great night merely just sitting there though i was soooooo full !!!

Alright, before i crap over nothing, till then ya ! :)

Update

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 12:31:00 +0000

yes i ve been so busy again ! lol. im so sorry , i ve been working and working and ... just feels occupied !

My sis's online boutique is launched !

HTTP://WWW.URBANCHIQUE.BLOGSPOT.COM

have fun shopping ! and i ll be back in short !

BREAK IN MY CAR

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 11:27:00 +0000

Hello.

Let's make this short and simple.

-=thoughts running through=-

1. my pet society is effing slow and im so sick of it.

2. im so hungry and i love to eat but im so fat.

3. im so tired after work and i thirst for a full body aromatic massage.

4. i hate my job because i make more than 100 calls a day.

5. but i feel productive having something to do.

6. my colleague studies in Help too.

7. so long since i last go out and had fun.

8. my laptop got stolen by some assholes im sure he's not educated enough. (elaborate later)

9. planning on a new laptop but im so lazy to research.

10.my gossip girl series was in my stolen laptop, so are a lot of my sister's business ideas and our pictures.

11.i just done one of my event job in beauty fair and getting money soon but im poor for now.

12.i effing HATE the rollover advertisement at the side bar of any website especially facebook. u advertisers just make us hate ur product more.

13.i am tired.

Sometimes short sentence tells how i feel the whole week.

ELABORATION OF NUMBER 8 :

It was a beautiful day , i was accompanying my boy friend in a cyber cafe, i then went out to find my friend. oh that was one day before my event job started. so what happened was i was urging my bf to bring me to taman megah pasar malam because i wanna get myself a pair of black socks for my job (also helping my friend to buy) so i was very enlightened to shop at pasar malam cause that was the chance i got after a year. so, expected there to be no parking, i asked my bf to park somewhere further instead, cause i dun mind to walk ! then we got down the car, u know girls, wont just shop for one thing, so we went on to talk for a while... and i swear, not even half an hour later we went back to take our car.

some guys were staring at our car, my first respond was... are they gonna break our glasses? then i walked faster...

" ur car got broken in "

holy shit what the fuck muthaf*ka c*ba* all kinda swear and rudest words came out my mind but i only managed to say oh my god.

the guy looking at my bf's car was a random guy parking next to us, his car is an estima and his got broken too.

oh ya, forgot to tell u, first thing came to my mind when i know the car got broken in was... my laptop. my laptop was one month old, how NEW !!! and i am just so so so so so fucking pissed at those uneducated fellas ! i mean, u want something, work for it, not STEALING ! oh thats not even stealing, thats BURGLARY. fuck them all seriously.

if u are so rich to buy a laptop detector, go buy yourself a cup to sit beside the road side maybe i would donate few cents to you. by breaking into my bf's car, stealing my new laptop, leaving all the shattered glasses all over the car dont make you someone smart and rich ! but it makes others poor, sad, and troublesome to clean off the shattered glasses.

i wont say its not my fault of leaving my laptop in the car without supervision but hello, does it mean u can BREAK my glasses and steal ? fuck you ok.
before breaking ppl's glasses and stealing ppl's things, please spend half a second to think, what if that happens to you? oups sorry forgot that u have no brain or ur brain is so full of shits.

BE CIVILISED

or these people never grew up to realise that they have left the stone age long time ago ? no wonder, no wonder, no wonder Malaysia has such a high rate of criminal records... tsk tsk. thanks these people. why not u guys get out of malaysia and go to somewhere like mars or venus where there is no human? so u dont need to live so competitive that u need so much money to steal my laptop.

come on people, 2009 already. who doesnt know the economy is down? who doesnt know crisis is coming? not just you okay. well. i cant say nothing but please please, don't take others' burden as your happiness. go nowhere but hell.

Broken Strings

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 10:42:00 +0000

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Broken Strings, by James Morrison.

First day, i woke up at 2 something, pm. then i online listening to songs and do some house chores then hang out with my sisters and played with my puppy. times flies and it comes to 7pm now. the night is scary and lonely. but i did not tear a single drop today, i rate myself 90%.

im sitting by the balcony, natural wind, but very hazy out there, guess it's time to get on a mask. keeping myself occupied, is not the best way to get out of all these, i know. but at least, im not crying like a baby. my body is all tired out, so is my soul and mental. but surprisingly, my emotion is pretty stable.

but, still, i wonder how is he doing. im sure he's not in a good mood too, but all the best, let's pray for him. pray that he will feel much better than me. pray that he'll have all his best.

as for myself, i'll continue doing this, moving on. life's not all about love, true? keeping it to myself and my blog is the only thing i will do now cause i find no point sharing, turning to anyone but my own.

what difference does this make to my life? drastic. maybe it changed my life the other way round, but who knows, it might be good? but im still hurt. i still wanna see him, still wanna be around him, still wanna make him laugh.

im sure i do better.

My Immortal

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 18:31:00 +0000

this wound wont seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
u cry I'd wipe away all of your tears
u scream I'd fight away all of your fears
i hold your hand through all of these years
you still have... all of me.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along...

I used to listening to this song the last time i broke up. No difference to this time, i'm still listening to it.

one difference i spot, this time, it's much more painful than any others. feels sad yet weird, im not crying now, on the first night. dont know if im already immuned or im too tired to cry. or maybe i still haven't face it properly.

i am back to single again!

and i cant fall asleep no matter how tired my body and soul are. no matter how tiring my eyes are, i just cant seem to close them. im scared of the images popping up my mind.

is this for good. is this for real. is this true.

wake up lil hunny, yes it is. pull your eyes open and see the truth.

never knew the pain is so untouchable, so fake... im diving in the fantasy... dun seem to want to wake up. this dream is over hunny, so wake up. move on move on. someone tells me these? tomorrow is a better day. but how bout tonight? THINK OF TOMORROW!

but how good tomorrow is ?

If your internet line sux... u probably gonna wait really long for pics. lol

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 04:53:00 +0000

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

if your holiday is still on! just like mine...

Holidays r fun in a way that... you're always available for any outing and u are always so free to do whatever thing you like.

As for me, i had a boring week, last week i mean. and i finally feel so occupied this week ! until today... im able to slow down my path, sitting relaxed, blog as usual.

What did i do this week? I had interviews, friend's farewell party, shopping(a fruitful one!), karaoke, well, basically im always outside when the sun shines! lol.

alright, so finally i hv pics! actually i've transferred days ago but as said, i was busy this week so now only i could upload them!

Deeviah's Farewell Party @ Telawi Street Bistro, Bangsar

the size is not properly edit as im too lazy

patheticcc

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 13:48:00 +0000

im sure u would love to know how a student on 3 months holiday would spend her time.

everytime before my holidays come, i'll have a whole long list of plans, to-dos so that i wont be a redundant someone, sleeping at home 24/7 complaining bored and feel like a retard. Sadly, none of my plan comes true, everytime! and yes, not as expected, im the one who complains BORED TO DEATH now. And, i also wonder when is my new sem starting !!! cant wait for it !!!

i hate waking up early, i hate scratching my heads over tough subjects, i hate burning midnight oil studying for tests, i hate travelling all the way to my college for classes, i hate preparing for exams, i dunno why i feel completely different now. i wish i can go classes again, studying for subjects, researching for assignments and stuffs! oh, pathetic!!!

u know, i feel so ... (lemme find a right word to explain my feeling) *after 5 mins* gosh, i really dunno how to explain how i feel ~ i just, dont wanna stuck in pet society for the entire day, googling over thousands of stuffs, chasing after bizarre gossips, do everything to try to make myself feel useful. im like, wasting my life... seeing my life fading slowly away! not exaggerating. im sure no one likes to feel useless, had nothing done in a whole 24hours, lay your palm to your mom to get money! tsk tsk. this is what i am. sad huh!!!

Rachelle's birthday outing @ Poppy Garden

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 09:05:00 +0000

I'd say, finally... i have an entry with pictures. lol.

and yes, i gain a lot alot of weight !!! i became a lazy bum in holidays and i eat and sleep a lot. guess it's time to hit the gym!!!

and this outing is a little special, why say so? because this time we clubbed with people we've never seen them in anything else than school uniform! yes, basically a highschool reunion. so it's pretty fun!

poor me forgot to bring my camera that night, i was actually put it on the table, i just forgot the step to put it into my bag! arh. such a waste. cause u know i hardly party i hardly wear nicenice make up nice nice and etc. but luckily we had rach, maggie and halle's cameras and after synchronizing, here's our pics!

the long time no see Jack Tan

The attendees

the posers (Ken, Kelvin, Jacktan, Mathew)

Maggie & I

The Girlies

Camwhore with the camwhore queen

Oh, u know who he is.

ChenLing, my neighbour back in hometown

im so fat !!!
that explains why i din take lots pics.

Me and the birthday chic. Stay pretty han !

There ends the night. and i just cant wait to have next outing. cause i did not really mix along very well this time as i was having a sore eye.

SO, TOODLES.

Updates

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Wed, 17 Jun 2009 06:14:00 +0000

hey there. sorry for being M.I.A. for a while.

i've not been able to online for a while.

i don't know what am i actually busy-ing over, but i just feel like i have no time to blog.

its my highschool best fren's birthday today, happy birthday Rachelle. and we're gonna party at poppy tomorrow night. it has been so long since i last had fun, really wanna get crazy for this time cause i cant forsee any opportunity of going party after this one.

my eyes feel weird, like i cant open it entirely. but i sweat i had enough sleep. more than enough. or is it because i sleep too much? but my eyes r tired. i think my health is getting weaker as i always feel discomfort in different parts of my body. should i see a doctor. but what do i tell the doctor? i feel discomfort , all parts. hahaha. shiznit.

oh by the way, im really happy and i think i shall put on a wide smile, i passed my exams. thank god.

nothing much to update now. till then.

Anticipate...

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Thu, 28 May 2009 15:45:00 +0000

the nearer the time is getting to meeting mat, the more impatient i am !

why do i talk like i've gone somewhere for a year. Nooo. i've been away only for less than two weeks. 8 days to be exact. but i already miss him soooooo muchhh! im even nervous to see him again hahaha. call me silly, yes.

im beginning really lazy to do anything but to wait until tomorrow! today after two mins. okok. i dunno and dun want to tell you how desperate i am to see him again. so, toodles!

Sick of holidays

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Sat, 23 May 2009 07:40:00 +0000

oh my gosh i am so bored. so damn bored seriously.

when i have classes everyday i was anticipating my holidays when now my holidays just begin and i am dying of boredom already.

i have no mood to go out but staying home is so dead sometimes. other than playing with suri my dog i dunno whatelse i can do. i really dont sleep a lot. not a drama fans. come on... u tell me whatelse can i do. *scratch head*

Exam is over

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Thu, 14 May 2009 03:39:00 +0000

exam is o-o-o-o-over!

i feel quite fast actually, it's like it ends before i really go into the mad fever of doing revision.

what i wanna do most is get a camera and take pics everywhere and continue bloggin' *big smile

i wanna capture down my dog's life and also mine. haha.

one year is short sometimes... another less than a week im gonna celebrate my 1st anniversary with mat :) *happy

just out of boredom

noreply@blogger.com (Joyce Siaw) — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 18:41:00 +0000

argh what will you do when u r tired n ur head feels like exploding but u r still stucked with your damn books in the middle of the night ?

SLEEPING , DUH ?

Uhuh, very smart.

but i dont feel like it yet, i just wanna take a break before moving on.

Can i bring up some topics and opine them?

sometimes i dunno why do people need to study and i used to ask my friends when i was young, who invented EDUCATION. aww that was so innocent. haha. but seriously, who said education is so important that we shouldnt leave it OUT OF OUR LIFE? aww, i just wanna have fun !!

fun needs money, and money comes from salary of your job. Job comes from your employer and employer sees how educated u are. SO THAT IS THE DAMN REASON WHY I AM STUCKED WITH MY KNOWLEDGE NOW ! ya so dun complain, go back to study hahaha.

but seriously, why cant i find my hidden talent and make a profit out of it? like maybe im such a great painter, or im best at shouting, how bout my singing voice resembles angel's voice and people pay me to sing. shit that would be excellent! and what if i just stay home take pic n blog like xiaxue and i live like her, luxury *blink

or maybe im hot and pretty enough that i go for some photoshoot n get thousands per session?

okay i know im pretty dumb saying things like this now. so switch topic.

hmm, let's talk bout... how to relax your going-to-explode-head ?

this is pretty torturing when ur head is screaming and u dunno what to do. i think when i sleep later i can dream of nothing by case names. sometimes i love studying n sometimes i hate. i love studying when i can slack off n skip class the next day not like working ur wage of the day get cut by skipping work. i hate it when i have to study for exam while exam is coming nearer and nearer! goddamnit why cant i have my good time sleeping shit :(